So, why is it that my feeling hurt only hurts others? I wish I never posted that previous entry... I wish I could take all the damage it has done and shred it to pieces. I shouldn't say things like that anyway... it doesn't belong anywhere.

I am so sorry.

I can't post anymore... goodbye.

Laptop... insanely slow... I swear, I am THIS close to seriously thrashing it! Seriously... lol.

In other news, I love being single. "What!?" you say, "Natalie, is your head on right?" Yep, it's on all right. I dunno how much more single I could be right now. I'm single, lovin' it, not trying to "get any".

I don't want a boyfriend, date, "friend ( Read more... )

I know I don't usually post in this particular journal when I'm sad or some other negative emotion, but I feel it is better suited here. So, if you really don't want to hear me crying over the internet, please move along. Thank ya.I'm just going to let my whole heart cry out here ( Read more... )

Will somebody tell me what is going on!? So confused-ed-ed!! O.o I tell ya, my moods are like a roller coaster gone horribly wrong. One day I feel "groin-grabbingly slap-happy" good, the next I'm in endless tears, and now...I've got weird vibrations ( Read more... )

Why? I can't let go...but I must...or do I? I said I wasn't gonna cry, but deep inside, I felt my eyes could fall out from so many tears. Why, God? I just kept saying a moment ago, "One more year, just one more...hold on, Natalie." Who am I kidding? NO!

I will come back for you! You will see; I PROMISE! (you know who you are...) I love you...and I ( Read more... )

My Kyo-kyo hat and bag came in the mail today! YAY! I'm wearing the hat right now, in fact ^.^ I've got some more Christmas shopping to do though...Linz, Lee, another little something for Sarah, Kevin...that's to name a few ( Read more... )

Love = stupid concept. Shallow. Stupid. Foolish. Ignorant. Failure. Stupid emo! SLASH! KILL! HIDE! ROT ( Read more... )

Well, I'm supposed to go to Modesto tommorow for Thanksgiving but I'm probably not gonna go. Why? My mom's fiancee, Scott, is coming too! Grrrr! That WOMAN of a man! I'm not gonna let him ruin my holiday. I already agreed I'd go to Pendelton, OR for CHristmas (and guess what, that jerk's going too!), so bleh ( Read more... )

I had a bad episode at Stars. Impossible you say? Yes, I didn't think this would happen either. I feel very miserable right now. Aaron was at Stars tonight, I was happy to see him at first...but later in the night, things got too akward...I'll leave it at that. So, At 9:00 pm, I walked home in the rain, walking through so much mud and rain, I am ( Read more... )